Yep that’s about my general feeling right now. I.am.freaking.out! Seriously. I leave Sunday and I’m pretty sure that my stomach has been in my throat since yesterday. I have just a general feeling of anxiety and craziness. Oddly it’s made nothing that Ayden does annoying though, but that is just for the simple fact that I am going to miss him like crazy. I’ve never been away from him for this long and when I have been away I could have gotten back in 4 hours tops. So it’s stressing me out. Plus all of the things. There are so very many things to get ready, emergency consent for Ayden, letting everyone and their brother know I will not be in contact for 3 weeks unless I am related to you by blood or if we share some common bedroom fanatics. Other than that I will blog and they will get to see me over there —–> where it says Oh India. Most of them don’t need to read this one so that will just have to do. I’m still doing the whole I have to be forgetting something thing…which will slowly drive you mad…promise. Oh and the Chantix…totally working, 1 cigarette a day and that’s only because I feel like I’m forgetting something and it’s driving me mad.
Scared shitless..
February 18, 2008 by Tara...Yeah like Gone with the Wind
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Makes sense. The first few long-distance trips I took away from the family freaked me out, especially because they all happened after 9/11 and my primary reaction on that day, in my tiny little sheltered NH town, was to gather my family around me and hunker down.
But it’ll be fabulous, I’m sure. Of course you’ll forget something, because if you don’t then I’ll have to hate you, and we don’t want that. I’m already having nightmares about what I’ll mis-pack or forget for my trip to Jamaica, and that’s for 5 days and a vacation, for Christ’s sake.
You won’t forget anything critical, and the rest will figure itself out. And just about the time you get comfortable over there, you’ll come home. Safely. To a happy, healthy, missing-his-mama boy.
I’m going to hold onto that thought right up until the minute I get back
Ok step one, I am jealous, because it sounds like a trip of a lifetime.
Step two, your little man will be so happy to see you when you get back, it will make all of the anxiety before hand be a distant memory.
Step three, yes you will forget something, it is serendipity, and if by some chance you don’t forget something you will still feel like you did because your lovely is at home.