I swear my life totally cracks me up sometimes. This shit just can’t happen to anyone but me. If you read my bog (yeah all 2 of you), you already know that I have been second guessing my relationship. It’s been apparent at the house that I’m not really happy. So I’ve had discussions and advised him that it might be best if he start looking for another place to live. So please tell me why I am sitting here at this very moment and he acts like the conversation never even happened? WTF is that about. Seriously it was like the next day, hell even later that night, there was this strange amnesia that took over. I just don’t get it. It doesn’t have to be a bitter break up, not at all, he is a great guy and I truly wish the best for him. I made the choice because I need to figure out what actually makes me happy, I’ve gone from one relationship to the next, really ever since Pat and I broke up and I really think that I need to take some time and figure out what really makes me happy. What I truly want in a partner and what it is to be on your own with no one else to answer to. I want to for once to be in a relationship because it is really what I want not just because I really just don’t want to be alone. So maybe after a couple of more talks it will sink in.
On a better note, I did finally figure out what I want to be when I grow up and I am pumped to start school in the fall and get another chapter of my life started. Things seem to be falling into place, well until the sky falls again.
